Friday ngiht, here i am. typing in the dark. my dad just got home from work at 2am. he must be fucking tired. i wish i can just give him all of my energy since ive been doing nothing but sleep and eat for the past 4 days. by the way, i am actually typing without looking at the screen. i needed light for my keyboard so i can see the letters. why didnt i raise up the brightness ? well its gonna ruin my eye sight so nah. i am already half blind now. not gonna make it worse.
so...whats for this blog? nothing, really. i just felt like writing. about i dont know... my wonders? my whys and hows?
i actually stopped writing because first, im a lazy ass second because i dont know if i have a good writing skill. thats one thing about me, when i wanna write i want it to be good and reach people's heart. but i guess you dont have to have a good grammar and bombastic vocab to reach people's hearts. in the end, it's the content that matters isnt it? the sincerity. the purity.
i wonder sometimes, how do people write poems ? you k now? with all these words i dont even understand ? to begin with i dont even know what to write about if i ever write a poem. because well most poems that i have read before, are about love and affection towards their partner.(((i dont have any experience lol)))) i rarely found poems about nature or maybe cars ? beds ? foods ? like....reading poems sometimes makes me wonder, is the world all about love? if it is, where is our love towards the syrian kids who are suffering right now ?? i know....the most cliche thing to relate with. some of you might say, its not love that they need. what they need is humanity. well, maybe you're right.
so, why have i been lying and did nothing for the past 4 days ? ive just finished my foundation year. so i have like around 5 months gap before i continue my study which i dont know where is it going to be?? i applied for english literature ? not that i am poetic or maybe love to write short stories or what, i am just into language, i thought maybe in literature i can learn how did language developed ?
speaking of that, once when i was 12 i guess ? i once questioned and wondered on my own, how the fuck do languages exist? like there are thousands of language out there. how did they become a language ? how do those weird words exist ?
ok...im tired. can i just stop here, im gonna go and continue my routine being a lazy ass. adios ppl.
